After this, I ruled over my territory as leader .


That being said, honestly my duties weren’t much different from beforehand .


Each day I was pursued by my work, and hunched over a desk making my best effort .


Although…there were a lot fewer people charging into my room with dramatic announcements, so I had a lot more spare time .


I learned from Lady Letticia that she was officially succeeding to the throne .


Seems like after a year of mourning for Dean she was going to hold her coronation .


I would attend the ceremony as well as leader of my territory .


This would be the first ceremony I attended as leader…basically the first time I would appear in public as a territory leader .


A year, huh .


I couldn’t help but sigh .


After he was gone, several weeks felt like a long, long time .


Like Mother said, occasionally I would feel a streak of pain in my chest .


But now I even enjoyed this pain .


“Where are you heading, milady?”


When I walked out the room, I encountered Tanya who was walking over with files in her hands .


“I’m going to take a walk . I need to move around . ”


“Then let me come…”


“No, that’s fine . I’ll just walk around in the yard . ”


I left her behind and walked out .


The spring air enveloped me with warmth .


When I stretched, my bones made a cracking sound .


Sitting at my desk every day was making my body stiff . Thinking this, I gazed out at my beautiful garden to relax .


“The weather is great…”


Looking up, I saw the clear blue sky .


“Is Dean somewhere in that sky?”


I couldn’t help but say this to myself, clasping my pocket watch .


He was protecting me from above…it was a fairytale belief that I clung to .


No, I forced myself to .


“No . Not in the sky . ”


My murmurs were greeted by someone responding behind me .


The familiar voice made me freeze where I stood .


Unbelievable .


“It can’t be…”


I was already hallucinating voices, huh, I attempted to calm my shaking body .


But as if to mock me, the voice continued to ring out .


“I’m so sorry, milady . I always lie to you . ”


My tears began to fall slowly .


It wasn’t a mishearing or a hallucination .


“What kind of lie is it?”


The voice shuddered .


“So many . An identity as the son of a merchant from the merchants’ guild . Pretending to be calm when I heard about your engagement . And my death . ”


“None of it matters…!”


Turning around, I rammed into his chest .


It was him .


It was him…Alfred Dean Tasmeria .


His warmth, the heartbeat I heard in his chest, was enough for me to burst into tears .


He was alive…alive!


“As long as you’re still alive, I don’t need anything else…”


His hands wrapped around my back .


The shuddering in his hands couldn’t be a hallucination .


Engulfed in emotions, I hugged him harder .


I wanted the concreteness of him being right here, right now .


We hugged each other, enjoying the warmth of our bodies .


I wanted to see you…wanted to see you!


And yet I was powerless to do so .


Even if I knew I couldn’t see him again, I still hungered for him, chased after him .


Lightly, our bodies separated . I raised my hands to his cheeks .


“But why?”


“I was indeed injured by arrows, and was in fatal danger…but thanks to the doctor’s hard work, I survived . But by that point the news that I had passed away had already made it back to the palace . ”


“Ah…so you’re fine? Not in pain anymore?”


“I’m completely recovered, without any after effects . ”


He said with a smile . I sighed in relief .


“Is that so…that’s good . ”


“Only the doctor who saved me knows I survived . I asked him not to spread the news . ”


“Why is that?”


“Letty said I wasn’t suitable for the role of king . She wanted to be king, so I should just back down . I think that in some ways this was the right thing for her to do…since she was already handling everything in the palace anyways . If I went back it would just be more chaotic . ”


Dean chuckled .


“My sister told me to do something I wanted to do . What I want to do is work here . ”


Dean clasped my hands on his face .


“In the past I thought my only two paths were becoming king or dying . I’d never thought of any other possibility . Everything I did was to become king…and I only connected with the people around me for this purpose . ”


I listened quietly to his confession .


“But when I was here, it was different . My imagined future disappeared from my mind . I enjoyed my work here…”


“Dean…”


These words sounded like a declaration of love .


My heart kept leaping at his words .


“I couldn’t help but wish . I couldn’t help but wonder . At another future . I wanted to build a future I had never seen and never imagined with you . ”


His hands tightened .


“Although in the past you only hired me on a temporary basis, I want to work here forever . I am a ghost now . May I have this privilege?”


“…Of course!”


Indeed, since he was dead he had no status .


But what did that matter?


After tasting despair once, I was willing to labor at any cost . No, this wasn’t even hard work for me .


Clasping my hand, Dean knelt down on one knee .


It was like a fairytale, a knight to a princess .


“Hold on…Dean!”


His sudden movement made me shout, my eyes wide .


But he just smiled and shook his head .


His determined eyes fixed upon me . They stole my consciousness away .


“I love you . ”


And then his words stunned me .


No disguising, simple words .


But the emotion behind them was enough for my tears to start flowing .


“I’ve always been lying to you, this whole time . Now I’m a phantom with no real identity who can never step onto the stage of this world . I’ll create a lot of work for you, I’m sure . But I don’t want to lie to you anymore . I love you, from the bottom of my heart . Even if I know the toll it might take on you, I can’t give up . I want to walk into the future with you . Please, may I accompany you in the journey of your life?”


My face was hot .


Joy, happiness . My chest felt full .


“You care about these things . ” I took his hand .


“These things…It’s odd for me to say this, but they really are a lot of trouble . A man without an identity cannot be husband to a territory’s ruler . Plus, this man has royal blood, the rights to the throne…so he can never walk onto the political scene . ”


“None of this matters to me . Because this way I can be with you . I thought you were dead . Faced with a miracle like this, these things are nothing important . ”


He was wide-eyed at my response .


I pulled him to his feet, and buried my face in his chest .


Everything I should say and do as a lady, as the daughter of a duke, disappeared in my mind .


“That being said, this also means you’re giving up the crown for me? Even if you come back as king, I’m already the ruler of this territory . I have no intentions of giving up this position, no matter how much I love you . ”


“Iris…”


“I’m a troublesome woman too, Dean . Even if I love you, I have my own wants and refuse to stray from my path . Because I love this land, and I love the people who live here . ”


I couldn’t back down on this point, no matter how much I loved him .


“That’s exactly the Iris that I love . ” He laughed .


“Dean…”


We were gazing at each other, with only the other person in our universe .


“But you have to promise me this . ”


His earnest eyes sought elaboration .


“I’ve had enough suffering . Don’t tell lies that will make me shed tears anymore . ”


The pain, the suffering, the tragedy .


Feeling like my chest was about to be rent apart…I couldn’t handle those emotions any longer .


“Of course . I’ve had enough of the lies too . ”


His hands caressed my face .


I let his hands take me, looking up to him .


“I want to be with you . Closer than anyone else…I love you too . ”


Finally, I could say the words . I love you .


My true feelings, my intense longing .


A deep satisfaction overcame me and I sighed in relief .


His face approached mine gently . I closed my eyes .


And so our lips pressed together .


So touching and loving .


Grateful that he still lived, grateful for everything I had .


At the same time, my heart filled with a rash impulse .


I wanted to erupt, to scream .


I wanted him to be completely mine, to the point where I couldn’t think about anything else .


Hopefully he was satisfied as me . Perhaps we were thinking the same thought .


And then we separated


“Well then, let’s go back first . ”


If we continued we’d be far too immersed . My embarrassment didn’t stop me from making this suggestion .


“Yes . ”


He was blushing too .


It was an adorable sight that made me smile .


“Everyone will welcome you back . We were all so sad to hear you’d passed . ”


“How should I say this…I’m sure everyone in the financial offices will be a little more reserved . ”


“Indeed…”


We held hands .


The warmth at our fingertips made us shudder .


Was it possible to keep walking like this from now on?


“All right, let’s go then! Dean . ”


“All right .

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